“…too much & not enough.”
By Natalie McCarty
Annually, I find myself immersed in a plethora of media consumption. Beyond the integral role that various facets of my job play in requiring a deep understanding, critique, and familiarity with both contemporary and classic content, my enthusiasm for watching movies, exploring new soundtracks, and indulging in binge-worthy shows is genuinely driven by a passionate interest.
Darcy Hart & Bill Farrah
In the realm of captivating television experiences, Hulu’s original series, A Murder At the End of the World, stands out as one of the most interesting and original shows I watched last year. While I take pride in my ability to unravel the murder mystery within at least the first episode, this series proved to be an exception, as I kept on changing my suspect until the very end.
Played by Emma Corrin & Harris Dickinson
The narrative’s suspenseful and riveting nature had me on the edge of my seat, and the well-executed twist (though I did figure out down to the tiniest of details two episodes before the conclusion) added an extra layer of excitement. Amidst the gripping storyline, Harris Dickinson’s charismatic performance only elevated the overall viewing experience (yes, I love him).
However, beyond the intrigue of the murder mystery, what truly lingered with me was the compelling relationship between the lead characters, Darcy Hart and Bill Farrah. Their dynamic added a nuanced and emotionally resonant layer to the storyline, making the show not only a thrilling crime drama but also a captivating exploration of human connections.
While I could delve into a comprehensive review of the entire show, I believe I’ll leave the pleasure of discovery to you, spoiler-free. However, there’s a particular line that’s resonated with me for weeks: “I think that this is both too much and not enough.” Such a simple line, and yet such a profound statement.
And isn’t that so true of so many things? To be both too much and not enough?
I think that it’s a sentiment often challenging to articulate or pinpoint in the moment, yet one that resonates with many of us across various facets of life. The literal writing on the wall signifies an understanding of the fact that events, circumstances, or even relationships have the power to be overwhelmingly all-encompassing, yet paradoxically leave us feeling utterly unfulfilled and deprived.
It’s the job that covers the bills yet erodes your individuality. The friend you spend time with out of care, only to leave feeling drained of energy. It’s the relationship you remain in out of love for the person, not compatibility.
Navigating the limbo of something feeling simultaneously too little and too grand is a challenging feat. Escaping becomes even more daunting when there’s no definitive right or wrong answer, no clear solution or closure — just the sense of being caught between a rock and a hard place.
The onset of the New Year serves as the ideal moment for those ensnared in the stifling comfort of a bleak situation to enact change.
Your identity is not confined by your experiences, and you should resist succumbing to the false narrative that it’s too late to break free or too late to make a change. Betting on yourself, channeling your time and energy into personal investment, is a timeless opportunity. It’s never too late to alter your mentality and transcend the confines of your mindset.
It is so very possible to escape the pervasive feelings of being both too much and not enough.
